Motherhood has so far been the greatest teacher of my life. Its taught me to stop living in a world of black and white and embrace the gray. Its taught me to embrace progress over perfection and present over perfect. It has taught be to loosen the reigns on what I thought I could control and be open to what is in the moment.
The other night I stood in the kitchen cutting some vegetables for dinner while Brett helped Charlie get ready for bed. I was focused on my action of cutting the onion and the sounds I was hearing coming from the living room. Our home was filled with shrill giggles that only a 19-month-old can make as he runs away from his dad as they play. The laugh was contagious and I found myself chuckling from the other room. At that moment, my heart swelled with love, joy, contentment and peace. I was 100% wholly in that moment. I wanted it to last forever.
Before I became a mother, I think I was disillusioned about what my motherhood experience would be like. Like many, I followed other moms on Instagram who made motherhood seem so easy, pretty and natural. The past 19 months have not always been pretty, definitely far from easy and being a natural at motherhood is up for discussion. I’m extremely grateful for my unique journey and wish I had been easier on myself in the early days about “doing it right.” The sooner I embraced my new life situation and simply did the best I could, the weight on my shoulders of raising my son and being a good mom became a bit lighter.
This mother’s day, remember that your journey as a mother is unique and the lessons you’re learning are exactly the ones you need to learn. Enjoy your journey each and every day because all we really have is this present moment.